In case you haven't noticed, it has been several months since my last post. The reason? Well, I just spent 11 weeks serving God abroad. During my time overseas, not only was I able to minister to others, but I was available to God, and He ministered to me.
As a seminarian, I am always confronted with the question of, "What are your plans following graduation?" It seems to me that everyone I know has asked me this question at one time or another. A similar popular question is, "What do you feel called to do?" This, too, is one I have heard many times.
While in a foreign country and distanced from the internet, TV, comic books, etc., I had much time to dedicate to spending with God. I was able to search the Word and listen to the Spirit in ways which I was previously unable to do. In those times this summer, I attempted to seek God's will concerning my next assignment in ministry (graduation is fast approaching - May 16 2008) I was so concerned with what God wants me to do that I lost sight of what God really intends for me...to be His disciple.
This is what I truly learned through seeking God this summer. Many times we get so caught up in what God wants us to do. "God do you want me to do this? Or do you want me to do that?" Instead we should be seeking who God wants us to become: His sold-out disciples! When we seek God first; when we seek His righteousness and holiness; when we seek to become disciples and disciple-makers, then, and only then will God reveal to us the details on the doing. I am not saying that this is some magical formula, but that I believe that God doesn't want more men who are obsessed with becoming pastors or missionaries or church planters or ministry directors - what God wants is disciples seeking to follow Him, walk closely with Him, and reproduce God-fearing disciples.
Nevertheless, there are times when we do want to know God's will. How then, do we know what to do while we are seeking to be disciples? Well, the Bible states that God does indeed answer those who fear Him and seek to be His disciples:
- "Who is the man who fears the Lord? Him will he instruct in the way that he should choose." Psalm 25:12
- "The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.He fulfills the desire of those who fear him; he also hears their cry and saves them." Psalm 145:18-19
- "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;" Psalm 37:4-7a
These may seem like some random thoughts, but I now understand God's will for me - no longer am I to focus on what God wants me
to do, instead, I am going to focus on who He wants me
to be: His disciple, seeking Him, and reaching out to others for His glory. Maybe after I learn how to do that and be content, He will reveal to me more about
the doing.